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Just because I didn't go to Raffles doesn't mean I'm dumber than RJC students. I could have damn well gone there if I wanted to with my GRADES. I just chose not to because I wanted to be in HC.

Just because I did ok for music and RJC students in general did not does not mean that HC papers are easy or that the teachers are lenient. You judge me based on my piano technique (which is obviously non-existent to you) and not based on overall. Am I that stupid in your eyes? You expected me to get lower? Well I didn't, so live with it.

Just because I look happy or okay during lesson doesn't mean I play/ practise my pieces in a slip-shod way. You say you don't know how to teach me, that I'm lousy, and I'm never meant to be a performer in music. I look happy because I hide all the insults you hurl at me every lesson and because I genuinely want to enjoy the lesson as much as possible so that I can learn and improve to be a better performer for you. I take things very seriously and it hurts so much to see that you think I don't care or I'm not worthy to be taught by you.

You have no idea how much it hurts. I just don't show it because I don't want to be vulnerable or weak in front of you.

I'm very open to criticisms and I take your advice all the time and practice at home. The next lesson, when I repeat what you wanted me to do last week you contradict yourself and say that my interpretation is weird and it should be like this and that.

I'm all right with you comparing me to national players and making me feel how I can never live up to your expectations nor be as good as anyone else you know.

I just hate how you judge me. I'm not stupid. I really want to be good.