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My piano teacher remarked today that I will never become a performer.

That started me thinking: I feel absolutely lousy at the piano, I have small hands so stretching and playing huge chords in Rachmaninoff's works is seemingly impossible. I am incredibly disadvantaged because of that. My teacher can't imagine how I got my diploma and she wants to faint/ spit out her coffee when she hears me play. I don't disagree with her. I feel like hitting my hands when they can't play what I hear/ expect in my head.

It's not like I'm any better at the violin. Starting in sec 2 gave me a very late head start and so what if I'm sitting in first desk? I still feel very behind in terms of exposure and virtuosity.

If only I could take days off school whenever I want so I can work on my piano and violin and not be such a disgrace to my teacher and my family.

Am I really cut out for music?