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Today's piano lesson was absolutely terrible. Deep down I always felt that I was the worst student she has ever taught and I'm really weak in her eyes. I'm really beginning to question if I am ever going to be good at playing the piano when I can't seem to meet my own teacher's expectations and possibly fulfill my own now that I have a new teacher and I have a new set of expectations for myself.

Then I wonder, could this be the same for my violin playing just that my teacher's too nice to say it point blanc?

Worst still, I have a piano recital/class performance coming up tomorrow and I'll probably be boosting other pianists' confidence because they know that there's people like me who will show up and be technically inferior compared to most of them.

You know I keep wishing that I'll be better, or I'll have more time aside to practice on normal school days (because given my hectic week, the only day I can practice is Monday and friday night). But then when you can't change any of these factors for the better, you just have to live with it and do what you can.

What now?

(On a side note, Jubilate was really good. Fulfilled my expectations for the night. I'm an easy-to-please person.)

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